I don't think you should blame yourself for this. You haven't done anything wrong. You can be aroused by anything sexual - we are human. It doesn't mean you are aroused by the aspect of a 11 year old and a teacher. If anything, the person you were talking to is to blame.
Lola22's recent replies
- May 12 2018 - 7:36am
- May 1 2018 - 5:48pmYou aren't a horrible person or evil for that matter. This is shown throughout your whole question - You feel guilt and wish you never googled. I'm sure if you were what you think you could be, you wouldn't feel this guilty and bad. I can completely relate to you with the guilt.
- April 30 2018 - 12:54pmThis is a very common feeling to have when you have your first child. Just Google it, you will find lots of mothers who have felt this way and then later on they realise they had no reason to doubt their love for their child. Have you visit your doctor about this? It could be a form of ptsd.
- April 30 2018 - 12:07pmWell you don't sound like a paedophile. And the whole point you are on here shows that too. I can relate to your OCD. It sucks and it makes you feel alone and guilty. But we just need to accept that we aren't bad people and this is a mental health problem.
- April 23 2018 - 9:08pmYou have done nothing wrong. Upvoting another person's comment doesn't mean anything. You aren't contributing to violence etc. Nobody is going to look at the votes and decide to go cause violence or murder.
- April 22 2018 - 9:39pmI'm not sure about the thoughts but I researched kava kava a few years ago because I had bad anxiety(not to do with ocd). I found a lot of sites that said it's bad side effect is something to do with a certain organ in your body failing if you take so much of kava kava.
- April 19 2018 - 9:58pmYeah. I know exactly what you mean by thinking that you are actively thinking bad thoughts. This is all to do with your anxiety you feel. It's doubt. Which is ocd. You think oh so beautiful then your OCD kicks in and goes wait a minute... that must mean this etc.
- April 19 2018 - 6:41pmThis is all your OCD making you like this. You are not an evil person or a psychopath. If you were you wouldn't know it. Like you wouldn't be questioning if you are one.
- April 18 2018 - 7:50pmI guess that's just it. OCD in a nutshell for you. You will never ever know. Because we can't go back in time to remember. There is nothing that can be done now. You need to just remind yourself that you haven't harmed her.
- April 17 2018 - 8:24pmYes this is all ocd. You need to try and take your mind off this by going out and doing things rather than sitting ruminating about this. I've said it before. But every day we wake up and it's a new day.