Hey all,
Been having a few spikes recently and I mainly suffer with OCD. Will try and keep this as short as poss.
I have always been a little bit obsessed with America since a child. Iāve seen a lot of the states and just LOVE it! The culture, sports, music, and just general way of life in particular locations. I was at a concert a couple weeks ago and the following came to my mindā¦
There were a few guys there who were dressed very stereotypically American (jeans, cowboy hat and t shirt) Ā and I love that whole look on a man, as Iām very much into that Country way of life. Iām moving to Canada next year and the thought came to my head āI wonder if Canadian guys dress like American menā which is normal.
but then my thought process moved onto āIāll check hashtags on Instagram to see if they dress the same.
i donāt know why I would think this, or think of searching for this because Iām attracted to men!! Why would I think to search to see if guys in Canada dress like this, instead of searching for other men?
I instantly felt dread after. I feel like itās because I grew up wishing I lived in America and went to high school there, and in a way still think this way. I think itās just because I like the stereotypical dress sense, not even in a bad way of 8course, but I just think itās cool. So maybe thatās why I had the thought to see if Canadians dress like this?
I donāt know, it just confuses me as to why I would have this weird and random thought trail??? I feel like even though Iām 29, Iām at the age where Iām still clinging onto my younger years as an older teenage and the years of my early 20ās.
all this typed out sounds so weird, but itās just the thought process in my mind typed out ?
Sorry itās not as short as I liked. I hope someone can help with some feedback on this?