I think i struggle sometimes because I a trying NOT to think it / I don’t want to think it so that’s why I do? Does that make sense. Aka I know In my dream last night there were loads of girls flirting with me and stuff and at the time I felt really stressed because I didn’t want to be thinking that. Now I could interpret this as denial or I could interpret it as ‘I don’t enjoy the thoughts / they aren’t who I am, I am struggling with ocd and therefore don’t want to think these things – that is the very reason why I do think these things and I feel anxious sometimes due to trying to NOT feel it’. When I type it out it all feels like I lie but it really is just as plausible if not more than our OCD irrational thoughts . I’m going to try and have faith in myself
