OCD so so hard. I want totry writing about it. I tried it before and I just felt like I didn’t really notice a difference. Now I keep having thoughts of doing these things and I don’t feel anything, no anxiety, discomfort, just nothing. It feels like I like the idea of these things snd my heart just aches. Every time I have a thought I get this heart ache feeling and my mind says it’s because I like it then it feels as if I do when I know I don’t. Then because I pictured myself liking it my mind won’t just let it go and it makes me feel like I do like these things and I’m just insecure about it or something snd I hate that because I don’t even feel attraction to girls. Like the thought of me doing these things doesn’t seem weird anymore like I can actually picture myself this way and it bothers me so much. I hate this
