Yes, I can understand the fear of losing control, but as a psychiatrist once told me, ocders don’t lose control. I used to fear killing people. When it first hit me, my anxiety was through the roof, but as time passed I could look back on months of fear but see that I had never acted on an IT. No-one was dead! That helped me to grasp how irrational it all is. But what really did it was when I came to see how I had caused myself so much real world trouble through doing crazy compulsions. Like I crashed my car chasing after a bag of rubbish I was sure I had filled with obscene notes and letters, which I hadn’t. I didn’t do what I feared doing, but I made my life a fucking misery doing compulsions.
