Hey,
I can only comment as a fellow OCD “victim” and not a therapist, but the fact that you are worried about this is a sign you are a good person and not at all what your OCD is telling you.
I haven’t had a situation like this but I have had false attractions. I feel like because you’re so aware of it and the more you try to not think about it the more you end up thinking about it and the more you end up feeling it.
And it’s not through genuine attraction that you get these, but through your mind just thinking about it.
like you said, you know you’re not a p! You would know if you are. I can completely relate to what you’re saying, and it is terrifying. But with good therapy and also knowing that deep down you’re a good person, you will get better 🙂
I hope this helps! Would you mind checking out and responding to my recent post? It’s titled “I’m back again…”
No worries if not, but would be much appreciated 🙂 happy new year!
