When I first have an Intrusive thought I have this overwhelming feeling idk what it is but it feels like desire or like excitement or something like that and it makes me feel like I like the thoughts and I hate that. But then I get this terrible anxiety and feel horrible and cry. But when I first have the thought it feels as if I want them to happen snd I hate it. I hate that so much. It makes me feel like this is who I am or would want to do it or like it. Idk if it’s just anxiety and I’m miss identifying it, I really hope that’s what it is but I hate it.
