I’m on a waiting list for the first steps… not even therapy. An assessment, I think.
I’m also on a TWO year waiting list for an ADHD referral – this really upsets me.
I’m also about to start anti depressant medication.
meanwhile … everything is feeling very bad. I’ve had OCD for more than 10 years and it’s just getting worse. And I’ve been too scared to be honest with a therapist – in case they confirm my worst fears.
im just sat here staring at my phone, can’t watch tv or play mindless video games. I can’t focus on things because negative thoughts get in the way.
im so distant from loved ones and it’s just so so upsetting. I don’t feel any hope. And I feel so bad on those who love me, I hate that I cause them worry.
