Hello!
I am a 72 year old man from the states…many years ago, a friend committed suicide…I thought I coped well enough…one day a few months later I said to myself, “ what if I did that?” Scared the ever living stuff out of me!!! From that point on, many thoughts passed through my mind…ruminating 24/7 for 25 years!!! Back then, we didn’t have the internet to refer to. Strictly up to myself to deal with these fears.
Numerous occasions found me going to a therapist or clergy looking for answers…still ruminating 24/7…my physician said she had something that might help…Lexapro (meds)… changed my life!!!
recently, “thoughts “ have reappeared…meds not working as well these days as the thoughts appear as my friend who took his life. Ruminating again but not as viscous. However, thoughts still getting “stuck”, mainly his face.
I could use some help please…Big D