Reply To: The last ten years of contamination and checking ocd. And where I seem to be now

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Hi there, Thank you guys for the heads up. I have been visiting grandchildren for a few days, it keeps me young! They have two wonderful dogs, and a cat that remembers me for cuddles. I love it. And, do’you know what? I sit on the floor… Where everyone else as well as me walks. They have real grass in the garden too. They poop scoop regularly, cos the little ones are running up and down the garden. But they never stand in any poop… There is hardly anything there anyway. They have lots of toys in the garden, water play as well. Grandchildren are absolutely amazing… Where do they get their energy on so little sleep!!!!  The song, ‘I wish it could be Christmas every day’ comes to mind, staying up late on Christmas eve, wrapping prezzies until 2 am, then a t 4.30 am, the chidren shout, Mum! Dad! Santa’s been!, and I’m still in a drunken sleepy stupor!!!

So, once a year is enough…  One thing I have practically given up now, is driving the car. It belongs to my wife, and, to be honest, I trust her driving better than I trust my own…

The sunshine of the last few days has gone… They said thunderstorms today for me, but as they haven’t happened, I’m pleased, which I wouldn’t be if they got it wrong the other way around!

We had egg sandwiches for lunch… Eggs bought ready cooked and packed with just enough mustard sauce. I cannot shell hardboiled eggs, because they don’t co operate, so the ready done ones are just right for just the two of us at home. More grandchildren come to visit tomorrow… It’s a good thing I can keep up with them! As stated in another thread, I’ve started sitting on the floor. It saves worrying about sitting too close to anyone, or having enough seats in the room or garden. Are my shoes clean enough?, well, they will be as good as everyone else’s… And they are okay… If someone wants to try and blame me, they have write down to times as well, cos it would be a legal document. Someone I used to work with used to highlight my caring errors, which were extremely rare and trivial, so no guilt there, But I guess when they turned around and starting watching him, well…  The last I saw of him he was working somewhere else anyway. And the management company had pulled out too. I’m pretty happy these days, even though I do come up against a lot of antagonists… Churches seem to have their fair share, don’t they? I live by trial and error… Errors aren’t as terrible sounding as the overused word’ Mistakes’.  And why is it, when we go for a job interview, it is all about our ‘strengths’, and then we spend the rest of our lives trying to solve our so-called ‘Weaknesses’.  It is my ‘weaknesses’ that determine my strengths, that I bring to a well-mixed team. I cannot be good at everything… It just isn’t gonna happen… I need other people to use their strengths to complement mine. Then we all do well together.

Right, I must get back to my studies, I’ve had a couple of weeks away, I needed the break to be fair… Studying is hard work, and I love to spend time writing too… My eldest son does some fantastic hobby-craft work in his spare time (!) He is a full time daddy (!) to fabulous daughters, the youngest of which is 2. I will be putting his craftwork up on display. Being nice to each other is incredibly uplifting. It has the effect of making us feel better about ourselves too.  The art of being able to say ‘Sorry’, without tearing ourselves down in the process… Is not as easy as it sounds, but well worth a go…

Right, I’m in charge of preparing the evening meal tonight… Chicken fillets wrapped in bacon slices… And mashed potato from frozen… I have found that, if the main dish item in the oven takes half an hour to cook, then a metal tray with the vegetables in can go in the oven as well, saving the need to use another pan and energy on the hob.

More later… God bless you for reading.

Wannabe