16 August 2015 - 14:30
Over the last couple of years or so I've developed a compulsion which is kinda like a tic with my head. Sometimes it's just a half shake to the side when I get intrusive thoughts or I'm in an anxious situation and other times it's a full on shake from side to side, more so recently a full shake. I've tried looking for other people who have developed this sort of thing and only found a couple of people.
It can be really frustrating at times it feels like I've got no control of it, Unless I focus on not doing it as soon as I stop thinking about it happens straight away. A lot of the times when it keeps happening I stop thinking about whatever it was that triggered it and just focus and obsess on it happening and it's very frustrating.
I've recently cut down on my medication by a bit and also started CBT and since then it's been happening more and more often. Originally it only used to happen whilst I smoked cannabis but then started happening all the time. I've long stopped smoking weed and for a good while it only happened ever now and again but over the last couple of weeks it's come back full on.
Even though I've read up a couple of people having similar compulsions I still feel like I'm alone in this habit.