15 June 2020 - 20:20
Hey guys, I had a good few weeks not worrying about some of my intrusive thoughts however I feel myself slipping back again. My biggest problem is not being able to convince myself that it’s just intrusive thoughts, it’s almost like I’m convinced they’re some kind of underlying desire or something that I’m only just discovering, despite how awful they are. I’ve been ruminating a lot and one of my biggest compulsions is trying to gather evidence from constant google searches which has led me into several message boards to try and find differences between myself and, let’s just say, some truly vile people. I couldn’t even bring myself to read some of them and even that is not enough proof for me lol. I just want some advice from anyone on how I should go about not worrying, I feel rather depressed at the moment, almost as if I’m hiding some secret. Any tips?