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15 June 2020 - 20:20

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Hey guys, I had a good few weeks not worrying about some of my intrusive thoughts however I feel myself slipping back again. My biggest problem is not being able to convince myself that it’s just intrusive thoughts, it’s almost like I’m convinced they’re some kind of underlying desire or something that I’m only just discovering, despite how awful they are. I’ve been ruminating a lot and one of my biggest compulsions is trying to gather evidence from constant google searches which has led me into several message boards to try and find differences between myself and, let’s just say, some truly vile people. I couldn’t even bring myself to read some of them and even that is not enough proof for me lol. I just want some advice from anyone on how I should go about not worrying, I feel rather depressed at the moment, almost as if I’m hiding some secret. Any tips? 

16 June 2020 - 11:21

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I just don’t understand why you can become convinced that your intrusive thoughts are real!? If it was simply thoughts and I didn’t think deeply about them I’d be fine but I feel awful and guilty! I keep believing that I could possibly be one of these awful people, I don’t want to go into detail as it’s too embarrassing. I feel like I’m hiding something even though i know who I am if that makes sense. Is this down to depression? Anxiety? I really need some advice here! Thanks.

This post has been thanked 2 times. 21 June 2020 - 21:13

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The next time you feel like doing a Google search or some other compulsion, wait for a few minutes before doing it, and when you're waiting, just do something else

And then the next time wait longer, and so on, then eventually you won't need to do it anymore

Also I think you should see an ERP therapist

21 June 2020 - 22:44

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I just want to say that I have experienced the exact same thing, being unsure if your intrusive thoughts are intrusive thoughts or not. I'd recommend you to check out Ali Greymond on Youtube and Spotify, she has talked quite a lot about this topic, and has said some things that really helped me. I hope you are doing well, or at least okay, and I wish you good luck!

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