26 March 2020 - 8:34
I'm a 16 year old female and I'm struggling with pocd for a couple of days. For half a year I had harm ocd and now it suddenly changed to pocd and I'm really scared.
The problem is that i think I'm actually actually act on them because my brain keeps on saying about my little sister "she's just a baby and no one will know" and that's just scares me but I have a urge to do it. What if I will do it and then keep on acting like I did nothing and people will believe me?
I don't know what's going on..
Also as a child I was molested and some people say that it's bouncing off me because it was an traumatic event. But what if i'm using it as a excuse and will harm my sister? It almost feels like there's nothing holding me back
I'm scared and want to be locked up, I can't trust myself or no one can trust me I'm a monter
Sorry of there's any mistakes I'm not good at writing