POCD feeling like I’m losing myself

2 August 2020 - 16:40

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Hi guys, 

I’ve been struggling with POCD for about 3 months now and in the past few days I’ve become almost completely numb to my thoughts. It’s like I don’t even care anymore and I just let it all consume me. I still get groinal responses but I don’t even really react much to those either. I don’t even do compulsions or avoidance behaviors anymore which scares me because now I’m afraid that since I'm not doing those things that that means I want to have these thoughts and want to act on them. I feel really depressed. But I know that I’m not a pedophile. I’m not attracted to children and never have been. I just hate so much that my intrusive thoughts aren’t bothering me in the slightest bit right now, even the most horrible ones. I don’t know what to do. Is this normal?