25 March 2020 - 19:47
I posted a few times about bed sharing with my youngest son and having sexual dreams in the middle of the night about either my husband or someone random and ending up with orgasm in sleep. Sometimes I wake up immediately with this.
I had this the other day and I remember my son's foot was on my knee. I'm just worried that what if subconsciously I really would do something sexual or do get aroused by him touching me and so in my dream, I have the orgasm but my brain just has a dream about sex? When really what triggered my orgasm is him?
It sounds gross and silly to write but this is how I feel right now. I feel such a wave of depression. Having pocd thoughts is one thing but to have an orgasm in your sleep while bedsharing and not know if your son caused it is the worst I feel. Well for me. I am not putting off anyone else's issues. I am just saying it is the worst for me.
I know dreams can have a deep meaning, so this is what triggered my thinking.
Anyone else relate or have wisdom to share?