14 May 2018 - 19:42
So I've had pocd for 5 months now.
Some days are worse than others.
I'm unsure as to what it is now. Like I feel like I'm becoming a paedophile.
I work in a nursery and I only ever have horrible thoughts when I'm changing the children's nappies. I get like the OCD compulsion to just give in and touch the child. I don't ever do it because it's messed up and disgusting but why do I have this urge?? And how do I make it go away?
I don't want to think of touching a child when I'm changing their nappy. It's sick!
I don't want to have these thoughts and urges.
Part of me thinks oh well. Just ignore it. But another part feels awful.