What are your experiences with Intrusive or Obsessive Thoughts?

29 October 2015 - 11:42

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Hello everyone.

I would just like to know about your experience with Intrusive Thoughts. How do they come about? How do they affect you? How long can your 'stints' or 'episodes' last? Can it cause you lack of sleep?

I would just like to understand more about the problem from people who actually experience it. I believe I suffer similar issues (in a slightly different way) and would like to know in further detail about the issue. Only if anyone feels comfortable of course.

Thank you for your time.

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29 October 2015 - 12:36

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Mine are generally all influenced by what I hear about, whether it be in the news, films, television. Sometimes it doesn't trigger me at all sometimes it does. Some of my current issues have revolved around dark subjects. Main theme being peadophilia etc and incestual things. The incestual one was triggered by a theme in 'This is England' and just generally when people make dark humour jokes around thise things. These things never used to bother me, but as I've gotten older I've just gotten nore sensitive and my ocd has gotten worse that I absorb things in different way and just question things and overthink. Violent thoughts occasionally pop up, genuinely out of my fear of violence. I'm find watching it films etc, but seeing it on the news or hearing about whatever real horrors are going on surrounding in the world triggers me. When I was younger these things would go over my head and I wouldn't give a thought to them. How do they affect me? Well I used to just cringe and think "what the hell?". But the past 3 weeks have been terrible and I've been stuck in bed with no appetite for two days now, avoiding going out and doing my day to day things. 

Idk whether you have heard of 'creepy pastas' (it's an internet term) they're basically shock stories, sometimes funny or sometimes disturbing and very unsettling. Well the idea is people write them, and people generally copy and paste them (where the creepy pasta) comes from. The term for the non creepy ones is just (copypasta). Anyway they are posted for shock value and naturally, as curious as we are... we read them. Unfortunately I read one several years ago which was about necrophilia. For some reason it popped in my head a few weeks ago and just triggered images in my head I wish never existed. Curiosity killed the cat. But in this case there was no satisfaction. Far from it. I've had OCD all my teen years, mainly in regarding patterns with numbers etc and that kinda stuff. But only recently this year or so it's caused bad intrusive thoughts and my obsession over them. I think a lot of this stress has cone from immense stress over the last several years. Well yeah, it's definitely the stress. I'm a natural born bag of worry.

29 October 2015 - 18:08

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Thanks for the reply. It must be very hard to deal with and it's worse when it's all that you can think about but it's the only thing you don't want to think about. I find with some people it gets worse with age and others it gets better. Do you find that your mind can take something rather small and make more of it than it actually is. Like you see something small on TV and not to significant but your mind will play on it? I hope it passes for you and that you try to keep well.

29 October 2015 - 19:53

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I'm still trying to terms with really as I don't really understand it properly. Intrusive thoughts in the past were sometimes pretty dark but I just them past and got on with my day. Yeah, anything small I tend to blow waaaay out of proportion, and I dwell on them abd they develop into more powerful thoughts, like the thought alters slightly to something worse.

I think immense stress is what has triggered me. It's only been the last two months that I've recognised it as my OCD and even learnt about jnteusive thoughts. These two months have been the most difficult of my life for several years. Right this moment I'm feeling a bit low but not taking my thoughts seriously and able to just think "that's fucked up, whatever", and I'm physically and emotionally exhausted by it all.

29 October 2015 - 22:51

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Whilst my thoughts differ from yours I know what you mean. It becomes tiring trying to combat them. Knowing they are reducing you as a person to someone your not in a sense. It can be difficult with unwanted thoughts to understand them. My problem is why do I indulge the thought? Why are these bizarre thoughts causing me to feel anxious, out of control and scared. Why can't I like most unwanted thoughts just brush them aside. I kinda know what your going through just in a different way. I hope you can find a way to deal with your issue and eventually overcome it. I appreciate the conversation.

1 November 2015 - 12:21

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Anyone else have anything they can share. Any story or experience is a welcome response.

1 November 2015 - 16:17

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Hi there,i think mine is down to re-interpting oringinal thoughts worries i had in the past!! Something happened in 2003 that made me worry for at least 3/4 years after!! Because of my current fear its relateing those worries i had in the past to my current fear! Does this make sense?

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Basically reevaluating your past actions?

1 November 2015 - 20:08

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Yes that correct,the memories i do have is i remember thinking/worrying about something in 2003 and 3 years after!!

2 November 2015 - 14:43

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I see what you mean. Prehaps others on this forum may offer you some advice or comfort. Your certainly not alone.

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Hi,i have a good idea what the cause of the worries was!! But my mind is telling me different!!

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