9 August 2019 - 2:24
I’m begging you can someone please please please reply this time.
So I was at the beach, it was late it was dark, I was with just my younger brother and there were only a few people around. We had just gone for a short swim and then as we came from the water to begin drying up and redressing, I noticed a group of 3 girls a bit in front of us, all wearing bikinis. From the distance between us, they all looked at least my age, probably older. I was checking this one girl out- the main reason I had picked on her was that she seemed to be looking at me a lot, and so the excitement this gave me made me eager to just give her the eye back.
After no more than about 2 minutes, the girls got dressed and ready to leave, and then walked our way towards the exit of the beach, and to my disappointment I realised that whilst the other 2 were indeed adults, this girl just happened to be some years younger than me (I’m 18 btw). She was a minor. She was too young. And yet even after I had realised this, I still looked back at her to see if she was looking at me!!! Like I still wanted to know if she was looking at me, there was still a slight bit of interest there. I don’t know why the fuck I was still curious to see if she was looking at me, because I’m not attracted to younger girls, like I said it was nothing other than disappointing to find out that she wasn’t in fact a woman, but a girl. Dyou think maybe therewas still a kind of hangover in my brain from how I’d originally perceived her (which as I say was of an age appropriate girl)? Like maybe my brain just hadn’t fully processed the fact that she was not age appropriate... I don’t know, I feel totally sick and guilty about this and I know what I just wrote might seem kind of like I’m lead people into giving me the answer I want to hear, which I actually don’t want to do, please just give me an honest answer. I just don’t see why I didn’t stop caring once I saw that she was basically a child...
Anyway thanks, please please please reply, I’ve not been so lucky with getting replies so far on here lol. Thank you very much. X