told my girlfriend

19 June 2019 - 23:03

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so think I have just come out to my girlfriend which obviously was a lot of tears from us both as I am so confused. I feel completely different to you guys/girls on here where you offer disgust and no liking the thought where I actually feel like I want to act on these thoughts. I imagine kissing men and I like it have I just been clouded by been told it’s Ocd because I didn’t want to accept true desires and was easy for me to put a disorder to it. My girlfriend believes that this can’t be OCD as I actually like the thoughts. I feel like I am going to explode with all this if I just don’t let go and go out and act on something I feel I want to do. I watch gay pornography as and want to feel what they feel within the sexual act. This is effecting my mental health in a big scale now and just feel like I am potentially in the wrong website l. Yes my thoughts plague me day in day out but will going out and acting on it make me feel better and help me gather confirmation. This seems like a big case of denial to me and almost feel the stereotypical action of i have always known I am gay i just didn’t want to be. Please any advice and guidance would be greatly appreciated and also from openly gay people on here who could offer support


7 July 2019 - 21:32

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When I was in high school, way back yonder, I felt the same way about drugs in that if it meant the symptoms would go away, I'll take them.  And ya' know, I'm 49 now and a day doesn't go by that I really regret it because I really did massive damage and I've spent the last 35 years trying to build something from the rubble.  It's been a monumental task but I'm finally getting things back in order.

I don't want the same thing to happen to you.  Don't let these "graphic thoughts", as you put it, rule over your life.