Thoughts when with my gf

14 June 2019 - 20:58

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hi all,

I have had a much better day today, and I have been doing all my homework and writing down every thought or obsession I have had in my diary.

however, something has really got under my skin tonight. When I was having sex with my girlfriend earlier I got a thought that I would enjoy it more if I was with a guy, although I was having so much fun. This made me worry and After I finished I was kissing and cuddling her and purposely checking in my mind if I would prefer if I was doing this with a guy. I didn’t feel any arousal only intense anxiety in my stomach but I can’t keep the doubt out of my mind. 

I now feel so guilty for doing this. Why was I purposely checking when I should just be enjoying time with my girlfriend? This had made me so anxious now!!! I couldn’t find any similar stories on the forum. Any thoughts?

15 June 2019 - 9:36

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This morning I woke up in an intense panic. Like I’d realised all my fears were true and it all felt so real. I just wanted to cry right there and then. I looked down at my girlfriend and I just felt I was going to completely lose her. I’m so upset right now. Please can someone help

15 June 2019 - 12:15

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God, I feel terrible. Like I will never be happy again. Why the hell is this happening to me

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