7 October 2017 - 22:47
Well... I hope this isn't too much even for this forum, but never mind. Certain times, when I mess up, it used to feel as if something is jammed up my *mhm*. It just wouldn't stop. What the heck kind of "anxiety reaction" (to parrot the sacred words, which get up muy nose ratjer because they keep getting chuced at me as if that was sufficent explanation when I can't see how that explains it) is this? And is there any way to mae it stop doing it? The burning sensation all pver my skin I could put up with, but this one... I am having a hard time understanding why this doesn't matter.
I assume these things DO count as "znxiety reactions", because it keeps doing different ones in the same situation and sometimes even about what seems to be the same thoughs. But they;'re not lie waht anyone else would expect an anxiett reation to . It seems almost as if my berain is just resorting to violence to get ma to do what it thinks needs doing - you see what I mean - making up physicl punishements to keep me in line.