13 January 2014 - 13:03
I have asperger's, bipolar and an ocd, i am in my late 30s (female). I was diagnosed with AS and bipolar 3 months ago but had good psychological treatment for depression last year and I was told I had ocd last year.
I had bad psychological treatment 4 years previously.
My ocd is staring at mixed race and black boys or men and smirking afterwards. I stare until they look back. Most are from a group of gangs ( they have gang tattoos on them). they are in their mid teens, 20s mainly.
I don't know I have done it unless my partner tells me. I have in the past when I was manic and single, had one night stands which is disgusting but also more disgusting just been picked up in two minutes.
I always talked these people up and put my partner down. I had psychological treatment last year and was in control but the ocd recently came back a couple of weeks ago, again staring at a boy in his teens and it was only because my partner said it happened that I realised what had happened.
I had an incident where I was drooling over a teenage boy in a shop in front of my partner. I zoned out I was so far gone.
It is disgusting and very borderline and incredibly disturbing. I am not aware of what I am thinking before I start staring. I am on mood stabilisers and I am asking for a referral for intense ocd treatment.
Has anyone experienced the same ocd and behaviour? if so, did you ever get to the bottom of it so you know why it happens and why so young?