14 April 2019 - 23:56
Okay, so I finally found some forums that kind of relate to what I am going through with my POCD, but not 100% (thats why I am here). My main problem has to do more with the emotional feeling of liking the thoughts and images. Someone on another forum described the feeling as a feeling of exhilaration/excitement/pleasantness. I get this feeling everytime I see a picture of a child or a video with some in it. Its gender and somewhat age specific so that makes it worse, also the feeling comes so automatically its like its apart of me. I try to remove this feeling by looking at the picture longer or video or thought but it either stays or gets stronger. I obviously freak out and feel horribly anxious after all this. Now its hard for me to go on social media anymore because I don't want to have this stupid feelings. I don't even know if I find these thoughts/feelings discusting. Its like the feeling is blocked or not there. I read more about the backdoor spike thing but I have been feeling like this for about a month and a half now. Is anyone going through something similar? Thanks.