POCD...Feeling of Liking Thoughts/ Images???

14 April 2019 - 23:56

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Okay, so I finally found some forums that kind of relate to what I am going through with my POCD, but not 100% (thats why I am here). My main problem has to do more with the emotional feeling of liking the thoughts and images. Someone on another forum described the feeling as a feeling of exhilaration/excitement/pleasantness. I get this feeling everytime I see a picture of a child or a video with some in it. Its gender and somewhat age specific so that makes it worse, also the feeling comes so automatically its like its apart of me. I try to remove this feeling by looking at the picture longer or video or thought but it either stays or gets stronger. I obviously freak out and feel horribly anxious after all this. Now its hard for me to go on social media anymore because I don't want to have this stupid feelings. I don't even know if I find these thoughts/feelings discusting. Its like the feeling is blocked or not there. I read more about the backdoor spike thing but I have been feeling like this for about a month and a half now.  Is anyone going through something similar? Thanks. 

This post has been thanked 1 time. 7 May 2019 - 18:45

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I know exactly How You feel. I get the exact same and I feel so so horrible about it. Everytime it happens I feel disgusting and I just freak out! But it can feel very very very real. I have No idea Why it happens.. maybe because I Fear This the most? I have a very Good psychologist. Do You Also have help at the moment?

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Hello, the backdoor spike can last very long because the pocd has been on your mind for so long the body is just feeling numb from emotion right now. Which is what scares people the most because where something new comes along like a new fear. The spike comes back and people stress that the pocd was fake but it's because the ocd has found something new to attack you with. I've had a backdoor spike for a month now

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