23 September 2019 - 15:31
Hey guys, hope everyone is well.
So I'm a 19 year old male and I'm going through a really rough patch with my ocd right now. I'm really having a tough time with my false attractions and I'm starting to feel like I'm genuinely attracted to young girls who are like 13 to 16 and it's really really bothering me. Sometimes when I walk down the street and see a schoolgirl it will feel like I want to look and notice her and I get really strong groinal responses and arousal. It's really stressing me out because I know for a fact that I'd never do anything with anyone under the age of 18 and I would never do anything to anyone younger yet I'm feeling such strong attractions? This time last year, I'd go to a party and talk and flirt with women but now it feels like I don't want to because I'm so stressed and confused about my pocd.
I've read online that it's normal to have a small amount of attraction? This has made me very confused about the whole thing as surely there should be like 0% attraction right? Everything is so twisted and distorted and I don't know what to believe anymore.
I'm looking at getting an official diagnosis for ocd and looking to get therapy for jt too. I just feel so stressed about telling my doctor about my pocd as I know it's something that isn't too well known or heard of.