POCD - Something doesn't make sense!!

8 July 2019 - 19:30

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Literally had the best day within weeks where everything has been fine and I've been aroused by guys my own age again and older and couldnt feel happier. I know this is what I want as it feels right and makes me happy. But for some reason everytime I see just one attractive young one i get completely turned off by guys as a whole and it's all directed at just this one attractive young one?? I don't understand how this all works as I relate to everything people with pocd has and I've had ocd related stuff before. Yet I can't get aroused to guys my age anymore but only to young ones after some attractive young one comes in. I don't understand how it all works and it's making me angry. I would rather sleep with guys my age... I know this is what I want. I'm happy this is what I want. But my arousal and libido to guys my age is completely destroyed once an attractive young one comes in. It's like being in a classroom where the teacher says 2+2 = 5 and everyone else agrees and understand how it works. I'm so lost. Am I actually a p then if this happens? This must mean my attraction to young ones is stronger? Yet when I have this I hate it it's ego dystonic which apparently means it's not what I desire yet it feels more intense so I don't understand!!!! Sorry if this doesn't make sense. I rushed this as I'm in a hurry

8 July 2019 - 23:19

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Anyone?

9 July 2019 - 11:57

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Please

21 July 2019 - 1:11

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I'm bumping this back as this is keeping me stuck

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