POCD - Something doesn't make sense!!

8 July 2019 - 19:30

Profile Image
Forum User
Join date: Mar 2019
Thanks: 15

Literally had the best day within weeks where everything has been fine and I've been aroused by guys my own age again and older and couldnt feel happier. I know this is what I want as it feels right and makes me happy. But for some reason everytime I see just one attractive young one i get completely turned off by guys as a whole and it's all directed at just this one attractive young one?? I don't understand how this all works as I relate to everything people with pocd has and I've had ocd related stuff before. Yet I can't get aroused to guys my age anymore but only to young ones after some attractive young one comes in. I don't understand how it all works and it's making me angry. I would rather sleep with guys my age... I know this is what I want. I'm happy this is what I want. But my arousal and libido to guys my age is completely destroyed once an attractive young one comes in. It's like being in a classroom where the teacher says 2+2 = 5 and everyone else agrees and understand how it works. I'm so lost. Am I actually a p then if this happens? This must mean my attraction to young ones is stronger? Yet when I have this I hate it it's ego dystonic which apparently means it's not what I desire yet it feels more intense so I don't understand!!!! Sorry if this doesn't make sense. I rushed this as I'm in a hurry

8 July 2019 - 23:19

Profile
Forum User
Join date: Mar 2019
Thanks: 15

Anyone?

9 July 2019 - 11:57

Profile
Forum User
Join date: Mar 2019
Thanks: 15

Please

10 July 2019 - 1:19

Profile
Forum User
Join date: Jul 2019
Thanks: 4

I don't know if this is any helpful but i've had similar intrusive thoughts. They felt so real because I had groinal responses and I remember being repulsed by this, but compulsive checking for groinal responses may cause groinal sensations. Ignore it like you would do with an intrusive thought! You're NOT attracted and if you were you wouldn't be worrying this much.  

21 July 2019 - 1:11

Profile
Forum User
Join date: Mar 2019
Thanks: 15

I'm bumping this back as this is keeping me stuck

Reply to this topic