8 August 2018 - 20:11
I have been really good for a while, got rid of anxiety etc. But today I went to the beach which is naturally full of naked people and there was a completely naked kid turned around. It felt like I wanted to look and almost completely liked it (90% liked it) and was aroused. Then she turned around and I snapped out of it. But then [comment edited by Moderator] and again it aroused me for a second. I am convinced I have ocd so why do I feel like this? Were there adult charachteristics I found arousing [comment edited by Moderator] ? Is this lack of anxiety recovery? Can ocd convincingly make you believe you are turned on by something and want it even though you know deep down that you don't? I am not even scared, just annoyed and want it to stop. This is not me and it never was, I never thought of children that way before this ocd nonsense. Also I am 18, too late to suddenly discover you are pedo isn't it? Sorry for the long rant but I just want to get rid of this, I have been doing so good and know I can keep going. Thanks in advance.