16 May 2019 - 9:38
I am 18 and probably have POCD, trying to resist compulsions lately and losing anxiety so I am getting somewhere. But experiences before I had POCD make me question it all.
1.When I was like 13-14 I saw a group of boys maybe 10-11 years old who were showing off trying to impress each other and felt an adrenaline rush or excitement which in the moment felt kinda good, but not like attraction good. This could be due to the fact that they were trying to display masculinity and "alphaness" and that is an adult trait. This lasted maybe 2-3 seconds. I don't get thus response anymore, now I just fund them annoying.
2. When I was maybe 6-7 I saw a baby getting it's diaper changed and got aroused but I think it was because of the baby wipes scent that for some reason always excited me and not the baby. This also lasted only a few seconds.
I am probably overreacting but OCD doubts are a bitch.