26 April 2019 - 19:48
So I have suffered with pocd for a good month now (what I hope is pocd). But there is a new problem I'm facing now. Whenever I think of young ones I'm weirdly calm and don't feel ill but when I thinking about guys in general I feel ill and feel like I'm about to go into a panic attack?? This is what happened at the beginning of pocd but with young ones now it's the complete opposite?
I already mentioned the paraphilia on my other forum so I hope you can read that and then reply to this. But is this another symptom of ocd??? I want my old life back so so much! I have these horrible thoughts about young ones constantly but now I don't care?? I weirdly feel calm when I shouldn't?? It's like my brain is now programmed to make me feel ill when I see who I have a crush on and I hate it. I really hope this isn't permanent. I felt numb for ages now. Weirdly when I think of young ones the anxiety goes away and now it's with guys my age? I find it that when I try to see if I'm attracted to them I get these sick Ill feelings. I also feel ill now when I get turned on. Maybe I'm just Ill from all this stress and that's what's doing all this. I would do anything to get my old life back