Pocd to a new level..

This post has been thanked 1 time. 26 April 2019 - 19:48

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So I have suffered with pocd for a good month now (what I hope is pocd). But there is a new problem I'm facing now. Whenever I think of young ones I'm weirdly calm and don't feel ill but when I thinking about guys in general I feel ill and feel like I'm about to go into a panic attack?? This is what happened at the beginning of pocd but with young ones now it's the complete opposite?

I already mentioned the paraphilia on my other forum so I hope you can read that and then reply to this. But is this another symptom of ocd??? I want my old life back so so much! I have these horrible thoughts about young ones constantly but now I don't care?? I weirdly feel calm when I shouldn't?? It's like my brain is now programmed to make me feel ill when I see who I have a crush on and I hate it. I really hope this isn't permanent. I felt numb for ages now. Weirdly when I think of young ones the anxiety goes away and now it's with guys my age? I find it that when I try to see if I'm attracted to them I get these sick Ill feelings. I also feel ill now when I get turned on. Maybe I'm just Ill from all this stress and that's what's doing all this. I would do anything to get my old life back

26 April 2019 - 20:21

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It's like I related to people with pocd in the past but when someone mentions "ps are like this" is like my mind is forcing me to become like them and like the actions. I felt normal a month ago now I can't reverse it. It's tearing me apart and my mind now makes me feel Ill when I think of adults. Can ocd be this extreme and convincing??

26 April 2019 - 21:11

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Hey! mailing you right now,
dont worry

This post has been thanked 2 times. 30 April 2019 - 12:10

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OCD has a way of twisting your thoughts and feelings. If you weren't attracted to kids before, you never will be, no matter how real those thoughts feel. Also, arousal means nothing, it is an automatic body response. Losing anxiety means you are closer to recovery. Stay strong my friend!

30 April 2019 - 13:40

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Thank you. I used to fancy so many guys my age and older and loved it. Now i can't get it back anymore. All I can notice is how attractive young ones are and it doesn't make me happy at all..

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Mr. Film is right. Another thing POCD does is plant false notions into your head, making you believe something that isn't true about yourself or a situation and then using it as an emotional timebomb against the victim, rendering them bedridden, scared, depressed and worst of all, at times, creating more false memories. Clearly, the only course of action there is to fight and keep fighting, until you punch through the walls of False memories, false notions, paranoia and self-hatred.

1 May 2019 - 16:13

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Thank you but now im just questioning if I ever did fancy young ones before now.. is this ocd trying to trick me again?

1 May 2019 - 16:21

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I'm pretty sure it's the OCD trying to trick you. I've spent the last couple of days now, believing that due to an autistic tic where I fondle my genitals to relieve stress, I purposefully thought of pleasuring myself to a photo I shouldn't have. I know this is nonsense, but my POCD is giving me hell and I can't get it to stop. Take my advice. DON'T dwell on it.

2 May 2019 - 0:59

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Thank you Mr film. But I must ask, what exactly is sexual attraction? I always thought it was being aroused by someone etc (gaining erection) and wanting to have sex with them? (Sexual fantasies) I know I never had the fantasies with young ones but the groinal responses are terrifying. Is it the ocd just trying to make fake arousal?

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It's fake arrousal I used to get it all the time, used to hold ''Anti Pedo'' tests for myself when it happened when i was about 15-18.

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