Pocd: Groinal response and arousal non-concordance

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So this past 1 or 2 weeks have been the best I have experienced where my possible pocd has been really low. And all my attraction to guys my age have come flooding back. I finally felt normal again.

Until yesterday night I was feeling In the mood and decided to get one off (sorry if it sounds dirty)
And I tried to imagine guys my age but once again the thoughts of young ones kept coming back and stronger. It was at one scary point where thinking about guys my age wasn't turning me on anymore and only young ones were. Luckily I managed to get off to a fantasy about a guy my age, but it bothered me at how it felt like it would of been better if it wasn't someone my age...

I decided not to put as much thought into it as I reckon it was ocd and I know what I want in life.
But then I was getting strong groinal responses again from seeing young ones and I can feel the pocd and fear start to come back slowly... I just read something about "arousal non-concordance" and it scared me because it stated that in women the groinal responses and actual arousal put together only counts for 10%. Yet for a male it's a really high 50%. I'm a (gay) guy so is this basically saying that for men groinal responses arnt really a thing and that it's actual arousal..

This triggered me and once again the pocd feels like it's starting to creep back into my life again..

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I'm self-diagnosed with this thing but GOOD LORD I can relate. I'm also gay (I don't identify as a guy but I haven't started physical transitions or whatever) and I don't want to give anyone any tools of reassurance but the way I think is that "I used to never have this problem before. EVER." and "Normal arousal to me is a slow build-up without any guilt, shame, disgust, discomfort attached to it. My supposed OCD groinal response feels sharp and strong (almost like me urgently surpressing the thoughts and being scared by them fuels it) and it's accompanied by negative emotions". That's how I explain it to myself. I hope to god I have ocd, because its been 2 months of suffering and my life is extremely different from what it was back then. Just so you know I have periods where I feel really good and free too (possibly because I'm doing compulsions without realizing) and then it all goes down-hill from there. If you want - message me. We can complain about this shit together.

24 May 2019 - 21:54

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Thank you. Anyone else?

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