2 May 2019 - 15:57
I'm 16 years old and I really need to get this off my chest. On a popular furry porn website I visit there is a lot of porn that features younger characters. I would look at that and jerk off to that along with the other porn that didn't feature the younger characters on the site. It never occurred to me back then that it was wrong. It was just cartoons and nothing was real. But looking back I have momentous amounts of guilt that I looked at that stuff. Most of my POCD fears and intrusive thoughts stem from this porn I used to look at. I don't look at it anymore (nor do I want to) and whenever I think I see something like on the site (I have a blacklist now) my anxiety starts up because I'm afraid I'm going to get aroused by it. It makes me question if it is POCD or not because I don't see anyone talk about it. I'm really confused, guilty, and scared. I just wish I could forgive myself and make these thoughts stop. Please help me!