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30 April 2018 - 9:40

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Hello everyone, im new to this forum,i suffer from anxiety and severe intrusive thoughts.i have ocd all my life in different shapes and intrusive thoughts.me and my husbend were trying to concieve for about 7 years and after 7 years i finally become pregnent and had a baby girl,i loved her so much and so sensitive about her. She is now 18 months old . Suddenly i get a thought that i dont love her,did not care about he if she become ill i will not be sad,if she die i will not be sad.these thoughts are so disturbing and i feel nothing towards her,im crying now,i dont want to be like this.plz tell me if anyone can relate to me and become fine.plz i want to love her like i do in the past.

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Hey.
You know yourself you love your baby girl.
It's just all ocd in your mind that is making you question it.
I promise you.
If the thought comes back again, just say okay. Well maybe I won't be sad. It hasn't happened though so I don't really know.
You need to accept the uncertainty of the doubts in your mind.
I think you probably would be mortified if something happened to your baby. So don't worry about these thoughts or over analyse them. They are just thoughts.

30 April 2018 - 12:48

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Thank u so much lola,i know but the feeling seems so real that  i dought my love for her.thoughts are telling me that when she was born you were so excited,as the time pass you are fedup from her and the joy is gone.when i look at her i feel severe anxiety and telling my self did i love her.i want to be my old self again.im not a good mother.she will be better without me.

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This is a very common feeling to have when you have your first child.
Just Google it, you will find lots of mothers who have felt this way and then later on they realise they had no reason to doubt their love for their child.
Have you visit your doctor about this? It could be a form of ptsd.

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Hey this will pass hun i went through this also its so hard but u know what you feel so dont listen to this ocd bs and dont react to what its saying if u ignore the thought they will fade x

30 April 2018 - 14:54

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Hey lola, im taking medicines, but the anxiety didnt go away,i want to love her more then anything in this world.im so stressed,

30 April 2018 - 15:00

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Thanks ocd hell, if u can tell me your experience and how did it go away,i want to love her more then any thing in this world,but these thoughts dont allow me love her,im scared if i will be like this forever,plz tell me your story.

 

 

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