27 October 2020 - 13:10
Well, I have suffered from POCD since I was 14 (today I am 19). What happens is this: until a few days ago, I knew how to perfectly differentiate a true excitement from a groinal response, but now that has changed. When I am comfortably aroused, by some normal content, I feel light chills in my legs, as well as a very good feeling in my belly and below.
Yesterday, on [comment edited by Moderator] a photo of a child of about 4 years old in a situation of sexual abuse appeared. I did not feel excitement but a strong anxiety, which made my chest ache. However, I felt a spasm (it wasn't a shiver, it was like a “nudge” in my leg. It happened three times in a row. Usually, in good excitement, I don't feel the shiver happening so many times in a row. In addition, the delicious feeling in my belly didn’t happen when I saw the picture of the child
Do you think it was a real excitement? I’m asking this because I’m afraid that feeling in my leg means something. During the day, I feel a lot of spasms , which has nothing to do with excitement, but even so, I was worried. The feeling of good excitement and the feeling I had when I saw the photo [comment edited by Moderator] are not the same, but I am still concerned with thinking that it means something
Thank you and sorry for the English, it is not my native language.