10 March 2019 - 12:05
So being a long term sufferer of OCD I understand how it all works. However in practice applying the strategies is still hard when you are feeling bad.
I have had quite a good run recently of being pretty well but now find myself struggling again. I have intrusive thoughts of 'what If' I've hurt someone or done something wrong. I will mentally ruminate situations over and over to make sure everything is ok. This I recognise is my compulsion. If I apply what I've learned in CBT, to not engage with the thought then yes the anxiety does lessen. My two questions to you all are 1) Even though my anxiety is going down what if I am responsible for harm? 2) I feel as though even having these horrific thoughts in my head makes me a bad person.
I just want to enjoy my life and my family without this torment.