26 October 2016 - 0:32
So lately my mind is calling to question whether any of the times ive been at war with my mind were ever real. Dont know how that started. Anyways heres a short story of something that happened with me about a year ago and ill let you decide if its ocd related since i havent been officially diagnosed.
It was a sunday i was loading my truck for work. It was chilly outside. And an older lady, id say in her 50s walks by and asks me for a ride home. Im nervous about giving women rides home because i think "what if she claims i did something to her". So i say no. And she walks on. I get in my truck, and pull out of my house. It was about 7am. I realize how cold it is cause i pass her down the street and her face is red and shes taking. I felt so bad. I stop and ask her how far she needs to go. And i tell her to get in. Im so paranoid i set my phone to record in case she says i did something to her and ill have proof i didnt. So i drop her off. And later on i start thinking, man shes gonna call the cops and say i did something, but i didnt, why would she say that, man she knows where i live cause she saw me loading the truck, shes definetely gonna call the cops, im screwed. Needless to say i spent the next 2 or 3 days worried the cops were gonna show up and arrest me. The anxiety never stuck because after a few days i thought well if something was gonna happen it would have happened. So thats one of my small stories of many big and little ones. Anyone else faced something similiar?