One of My short stories

26 October 2016 - 0:32

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So lately my mind is calling to question whether any of the times ive been at war with my mind were ever real. Dont know how that started. Anyways heres a short story of something that happened with me about a year ago and ill let you decide if its ocd related since i havent been officially diagnosed.
It was a sunday i was loading my truck for work. It was chilly outside. And an older lady, id say in her 50s walks by and asks me for a ride home. Im nervous about giving women rides home because i think "what if she claims i did something to her". So i say no. And she walks on. I get in my truck, and pull out of my house. It was about 7am. I realize how cold it is cause i pass her down the street and her face is red and shes taking. I felt so bad. I stop and ask her how far she needs to go. And i tell her to get in. Im so paranoid i set my phone to record in case she says i did something to her and ill have proof i didnt. So i drop her off. And later on i start thinking, man shes gonna call the cops and say i did something, but i didnt, why would she say that, man she knows where i live cause she saw me loading the truck, shes definetely gonna call the cops, im screwed. Needless to say i spent the next 2 or 3 days worried the cops were gonna show up and arrest me. The anxiety never stuck because after a few days i thought well if something was gonna happen it would have happened. So thats one of my small stories of many big and little ones. Anyone else faced something similiar?

26 October 2016 - 15:22

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Yeah i understand you so well, my phone is full of screenshots and i saved my whole whatsapp convo with my ex "just in case". I also fear of legal accusations like you do. So I'd say it's normal for people with ocd

27 October 2016 - 6:29

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Thanks Chocokitty. I have some things saved in my phone also. Im not sure if thats a good thing to look back on them to seek reassurance that nothing happened. But its so hard at times. Especially when the obsession is fresh.

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