21 July 2019 - 0:26
I have been taking a bit of time away from the site as causes serious stress sometimes but I am just at a point now where I just feel I know I am.
my girlfriend and I went to a party last night and I saw this guy I haven’t seen in years and I was proper taken back by him and it felt like in a good way, the thought of kissing him was pleasing and I couldn’t stop staring at him, that to me seems like attraction.
I remember some of you saying going to a gay bar would help and I think it really would. I mean I seek gay porn all the time and feel I am not doing it for any reassurance that I am not gay but more reassurance that I am.
I see on here that people are very unhappy with their intrusive thoughts but I genuinely feel like I enjoy the thoughts and unhappy because I know I am but I just don’t want to be gay because of the society
Is it possible that someone could be gay but just be OCD about being gay.