28 May 2014 - 2:20
Hey guys, I'm BoxTunnel20 (couldn't think of anything else anonymous enough, it's from Being Human)
I'm 17 from England & I've been suffering from intrusive thoughts, pretty sick ones too since I was 16, in March 2013. Every day since March I have had sexual intrusive thoughts. It's horrible, of course as you'll all know and you wonder stuff like 'why me?' and 'all this time I've been leading up to becoming like this'...I've had a lot of stress going on since January, I can elaborate in the future since I want to keep this brief, but what does reassure me is that these thoughts intensify when I'm stressed. Started my first college exams recently (finished on Friday just gone - yay!) & the thoughts came back to being there most of the day and they're not letting up, me and my nan call the thoughts my 'stress detector' but I think it's finally time to get help and speak out. I've had reassurance from sites like this and others since it all started, reading others posts about what they think and how it bothers them helps me, because the posts actually describe how I think completely...it stops all feelings of isolation (for a night or two obviously) and I've decided to come and help people as well and speak out more, because sitting in silence never helps.
Before I end the post, I'm not officially diagnosed with OCD or what I suspect myself to have - OCPD. However I match all symptoms (and funnily enough I'm borderline Aspergers according to online tests) and a year of intrusive thoughts does point in that direction so I'm going to be speaking to the doctors soon, but I'm sure I'll get just as much help speaking to others with this dreadful problem.