25 October 2020 - 1:37
Is this my OCD talking?
Years ago I had a partner and often we would sleep together after nights out. I don’t drink a lot.. to be honest after three drinks I am quite tipsy, and one cocktail sends me spinning.
I never forced myself on partners, although one of them has to me. He was 6ft 2 and could drink 10 drinks and would be sober after all of that. Sometimes on nights out he would drink that much and would be sober and we would naturally sleep together. Other times he or myself might be slightly tipsy and then we’d sober up and sleep together.
I keep telling myself that because he drank more and because we slept together I must have r*ped him. Even though ironically he once continued to be intimate when I fell asleep for god knows how long. Is this my OCD misinterpreting things? Does it matter if one drinks more than the other? What if he was in a worse state than I realised?