14 November 2016 - 1:52
Hi pixies, how are you? I honestly have stopped posting on here so much, I guess I really haven't felt the need too. I've fell out of a horrible conpulsion which is good. I mean I love to write, but this was more of a compulsion. Anyways, my therapist helps a lot. Here's an update of my life!
I'm doing okay in school, I have two A's, one B, and three C's. Could be better and I'll work on it. I'm also getting bangs! I'm excited for them and I nigt dye my hair dark purple, it's a really pretty color. Also I've been trying so much more with my makeup, and kinda with my hair. I feel like I've tried more with my clothing too, my whole appearance in general. I'm still obsessing a lot but I know how to handle it better, so it does help and my therapist helps a lot. I even told her about some memepries and she basically was like you did nothing wrong, which helped a great deal. I've been pretty depressed here and there, and my mind has put me through hell the last two years and it was NOT my choice. It wasn't fair, because of how young I was and how confused and sad I was. I didn't know what was happening to me. But now im getting better, and I have a whole life to look forward to. Don't get me wrong, im still in pain all the time. But I have so many things that keep me going, things I have to look forward to. I wanna be happy and I can't wait for that to happen, I think maybe it could already be blooming. I hope so. In fifteen days I will be on medication and Im kinda scared. What if it makes me worse? But I know I need to try. Anyways, I'm going to go now, I'm probably going to watch Netflix and do my homework and other stuff!! Night, pixies!!