15 May 2019 - 14:29
So I'm having a bad spell atm. I have a long history of OCD which has taken many themes over the years. All of my obsessions involve harm of some sort, be it running someone over in the car, physically hurting someone and more recently harm of a sexual nature.
For the last 2-3 weeks I have had a feeling of intense anxiety constantly and the intrusive thought of 'what If I've harmed someone in the past but dont remember it's.
This then causes me to ruminate over the past checking my memory over and over which I know is the wrong thing to do.
I feel guilty as if im responsible for something which I know deep down i'm not.
I feel like I'm this really bad person for even having this content in my mind and the constant anxiety is exhausting.
How do i get myself over this bad spell?