I don’t want to go on anymore

21 July 2018 - 16:35

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I’ve had ocd for a long time now. It has been so bad this year. I keep telling myself I’ve done something horrible while drunk and don’t remember. I tell myself I don’t deserve help because I’m an evil person. I just want to end it, I feel so down ☹️ The only thing keeping me going is how sad my mum would be if I killed myself. I want to message people asking if I’ve done anything horrible while drunk but I’d seem crazy. Don’t know what to do 

21 July 2018 - 17:13

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Hey you're not a terrible person. This is what your OCD wants you to believe. It targets exactly that, your worst fears. You have to acknowledge that your OCD makes your fears your reality. It's not real though. You're an amazing person I am sure. Go talk to someone and get some help. You'll see, everything will clear out. It's hard living a life in fear. But it can get better with some help. Please, do. It can get better and it will. 

With all my love, 

Marina

21 July 2018 - 19:37

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Hi,

I am going through something similar. You just have to remember that you know the truth. Even if you ask everyone around you what happened it probably won’t be enough because your mind will just go on to the next thing. When the thoughts come up just remember that nothing happened & try not to keep replaying your drunk night in your head because each time you will add something more. What has helped is to stop talking about it to so many people & trying to find reassurance from everyone because you are the only person who knows the truth, someone will always question you which in turn will make you question yourself. Stand your ground & know that a lot of people go through these same issues & you are not alone!

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