1 October 2020 - 1:13
I’m relatively young, so I don’t have the means to see a medical professional without my parents. My parents are both very kind people who love me very much, my own mom even suffers from an anxiety disorder. I want to ask them about therapy but I’m so scared. I don’t want to waste their time, because what if the therapist tells me that my thoughts are real. Or what if the ERP proves that my thoughts are real. I just want to be who I was earlier in the summer, and I’m afraid that it’s forever changed. I hate these thoughts, but what if subconsciously I don’t. I need help but I have zero clue on where to start. Do I have to see a therapist or an OCD specialist? Is there a difference? What if I see an OCD specialist specifically and they just straight up tell me I self diagnosed myself incorrectly and that I have Münchausen syndrome or something. I don’t want to waste my parents money on something that might not work, I don’t know how to go about this process. I’m going to talk to my dad about it this weekend, I hope, but I don’t want to ask him blindly with no information. How do I even explain to my dad what’s going on, what if I tell him I’m struggling with intrusive thoughts and he just tells me I need to stop obsessing. I’m so scared. I don’t even know if this is actually OCD or not, maybe I just need to figure it out myself first before I waste my parents money on something that I might not even need.