19 January 2020 - 2:51
HOCD has been ruining all my close friendships for the past 6 years. Every time I get close to someone of the same sex it latches onto them and convinces me that I am falling in love with them. It feels very real and one of my last close friendships I cut off completely because I couldn't stop ruminating about it and was convinced I was in love with her. I think it is happening again, I got a new close female friend and we hang out a lot and have been close friends for about 3 years now and it was going fine because I was ignoring the thoughts every time they came up. But it feels different now like I am having really intense feeling or something? or like I think I am having an intense feeling so it happens and it just feels like a pressure in my chest or something. I can't really describe it but it has me convinced again that I am in love or something. It is probably just my OCD but I am having such a hard time, now every time I hear about someone falling in love it is a trigger for me. I just wanted to vent and let people know in case someone had some good advice.