Hocd or denial ?

1 October 2020 - 9:02

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I watched a lesbian porn this morning just to check that I don’t enjoy it. But after that my brain thought « okay I’m bi » and I felt no anxiety, It was like I accepted it even if bi thoughts feel weird and awkward/shameful to me. I now I can’t get the thought out of my head, it feels real, like I was bi from the beginnings and I just lied. It create a great distress and I feel bad and sad right now.. 

Someone experimented that ? Or I Am really bi ?