9 August 2018 - 8:12
I need some help I have HOCD have had it off and on for a couple of years, with other forms of Anxiety in the time when HOCD wasn't there one notable thing was Health Anxiety. I want o ask about the groinal response particularly in relation to the viewing/checking of gay porn. I have recently elevated to checking gay porn multiple times a day in order to reassure myself. However, this isn’t working as every time I check I get a slight swelling in my penis accompanied by tingles in my legs where I can’t stand still. I have never achieved a full erection to gay porn which is something but this swelling in my penis still fills me with anxiety and I can’t stop thing about it and that I need to check again. Does this swelling make me gay? Is the fact that something is happening in reaction to the gay porn proof that I am gay? I don’t know what to do any more, I read online and no one seems to mention anything like this everyone just says ‘I wanted gay porn but I didn’t get aroused’. I don’t ever know if it is arousal but it is something and I just want to understand it.