5 March 2020 - 16:52
Just a quick post. I was wondering if anyone was suffering with anything similar or has suffered. I’m a male, just before I go any further.
I have suffered with what I think is HOCD for around 6 years. It has killed my life and stopped from doing so much.
I am just wondering whether any ‘straight’ guys who suffer with this, ever have a nervous/panic when they speak to other men they consider good looking. I feel like this is almost certain proof I am gay, because I can’t relax when I am with them. It’s not a feeling of excitement but literally just terror. Like I notice they’re handsome and my heads just fills me with anxiety. It makes me shake and my heart pounds, similar to an anxiety attack.
I don’t remember when it started but I know that until HOCD I never thought about men sexually. I still don’t tend to think of men in that way.
I find it hard to differentiate the difference between ‘attraction/finding someone attractive vs sexual attraction’. Can anyone help clear this up?