Help me please, something bad just happened! HELP

17 September 2018 - 20:25

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Hello, 

I am really panicing something just ahppened that has never happend before. I was sitting alone with my thoughts doing what they do best and then all of a sudden I said out loud 'What if I am just dennying what I desire' this has sent me into a spiral. I need help, why did I say this? Does this mean something? I have never heard of anyone saying these things out loud just having the thoughts. I feel that this has made it true.

17 September 2018 - 21:25

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Hi there

I can see that this incident was very distressing for you.

OCD will try to tell you that something like this must mean something else. It doesn’t mean anything. So you blurted something out- sounds like a pretty normal thing to happen I’d say, especially if frustration/intrusive thoughts have been building up, but I don’t know why it happened and you may never either! Try to tolerate the uncertainty of not knowing exactly why you said it out loud. Chasing the question of ‘why’ just feeds the OCD. 

Are you in therapy?

Hang in there, if you don’t chase the meaning you’ll find your discomfort reduces.

Take care

 

 

 

17 September 2018 - 22:14

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Hello and thank you for replying, 

I know that saying it out loud makes it no more true than it being in my head, I have no idea why it happed I guess I just had a bad day and then it poped out I wasnt really paying to much attention to the fact it was happening. I just paniced, 

I started therapy not to long ago, but I have only had a couple of sessions due to the cost. This is a relapse of my HOCD I have been diagnosed with OCD for a while since I was around 11 having a lot of issues with health anxiety as well as a fear that I was going to take steroids when I was about 9. So I am not new to it but I have been HOCD free for about 3 years and now its back and worse than ever and every time something new happens I freeze and just panic and wonder why. I guess it is just the way OCD gets you. 

 

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