Gay denial

5 February 2020 - 3:08

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Why would I feel nervous or depressed about same sex attractions. Is it because society tells us we can't or have we been programmed. Once I questioned it with a thought that's when I thought about it and discovered I was gay
Why do I feel repressed and holding it in, when there's nothing wrong with being gay. Is this because I care what other people think about me. I've started getting attractions towards men around 18 , never went away and started hiding inside my house and isolating because I believe I'm gay and confused. Again I'm not mad just lost. We don't choose our sexuality, and the thing is being gay isn't even that bad buy why i'm I scared? I'm having anxiety because I discovered something new about myself. Therapy has helped but wish I could have known sooner in life.

5 February 2020 - 5:49

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Trying to figure this out and answer these questions is like trying to answer existential questions, they're debatable til death, drop the questions and just go with the flow of life, in whichever direction it takes you. You can't go back and you can't jump forwards to figure everything out. And If you have "one foot in the past and one in the future, you're not here in the present", living. Anxiety takes as much of your life as it needs, how about putting a wedge between you and it, accepting that it's there and will be there, and doing something you enjoy or rather be doing with your life.

Worrying and ruminating isn't going to stop anxiety or change anything in your life. You make the changes. Make recovery a priority, not the never-ending questions.


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