Fears as a kid brought back by OCD? Help!

7 July 2019 - 11:13

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When i was a kid until 14. I was obsessing and scared about the end of the world, what hapoens when we die, and zombies, i was so scared of zombies and zombie apocalypse. Then as i grew up (18 now) ofcourse those nonsense were gone as i dont have the immature fesr of zombies.

Yesterday i was on the phone with my mom, the line suddenly cut out, but then it git im my head that there are zombie apocalypse or something, i was scared not because of the thought, i was scared because i got the thought, i was scared the horrors i keep thingking when i was a kid is returning. Ofcourse the thoughts are scary but i dont really believe that it is happening, im most scared is that i have to live fearing zombies and zombie apocalypse for a long time again.

i know i dint believe it and im not scared, im just scared that its the fear will happen allover again.

as soon as i got the thought, my thoughts start to snowball

8 July 2019 - 7:59

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i think im starting to obsess about zombie apocalypse and such, im pretty much scared by the fact that i am getting these thoughts and will haunt me for a long time, than the thougt itself. I always make sure that i dont believe this because its not possible, but it backfired because it felt real that theres possible zombie apocalypse because i am proving it to myself that it isnt to make sure i dont believe it.

although i know its not possible and irational, im scared by the fact that i get these thoughts.

it started when i am obsessing about bipolar and suddenly i thought of zombie then it snowballed  until here i am with these childish thoughts

9 July 2019 - 19:07

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With ocd the thoughts are always irrational- I know my thoughts are but it doesn't stop the anxiety and the fact that I want to carry out compulsions. It's an awful disease and I really wish so many people didn't have to suffer it but at least on this forum we can discuss our thoughts- no matter how irrational they are!

14 July 2019 - 16:52

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i believe the fears you had as a kid were ocd to begin with. it’s possible that as you got older you realized how irrational and silly it was and grew out of it, and now your ocd is finding another way to make you worry about something, such as fearing that the fear itself is coming back.

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