False memory related?

30 October 2016 - 15:34

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Hi all, I'm new to this site and recently I've been having stuff occur which I'm not sure is real or just a figment of my imagination.
For example, last week I went to a club with my friend. I got pretty drunk and may have forgotten some bits and pieces. I remember many parts to the night but here and there are missing. about 2 days after I began to think I may have hooked up with someone in the club. Now my longest time I went without texting my friend was about 30 min. I think it is almost impossible for me to have hooked up with anyone considering I was wearing pants/belt, have no memory whatsoever of doing so but have memory of other small events like closing xmy tab, talking to a guy, leaving the bar, and seeing 2 friends as I left the bar. I wasn't sore in days to come either. One thing that is really bothering me is I think I have developed a uti. Other than this I think this is my mind playing tricks on me but am fairly new to intrusive thoughts/false memory. Anyone have thoughts on this. trying to put my mind at ease. I talked to my friend who was with me for some of the night and she says she doesn't think so and that I didn't mention it. I think if I had I would have some recollection of it?? Especially since I remember other small parts of the night.

This post has been thanked 1 time. 30 October 2016 - 15:51

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Believe me u would remember I've had OCD off and on for 37 years with all kind of thoughts and this was one I use to have. Try to remember if you thinking about this thought it's not real. 

 

30 October 2016 - 16:27

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I'm almost positive it is just a thought but then I think "what if my mind is just blocking it out from me, and not allowing me to remember"
Is this thought also just part of ocd?

13 November 2016 - 15:31

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Sorry to bring this back up, but I'm still feeling a bit uneasy about the whole situation. I wanted to add in the fact that about 6 months ago I did get very drunk and I ended up having sex with someone. I was blacked out for the most part and with my friend. We ended up bringing guys back to her apt and I hooked up with one of them while she and the other guy went to get food. While I don't remember him or bringing him home I do remember being in bed with him. This was the only time I've done this and probably the drunkest. It really freaked me out and I got all my std tests done and everything came back fine. I think this whole situation is what is fueling my current fear. This time I was definitely not as drunk as in june and don't remember doing anything with a guy. Every time I've gone out since June I've watched how much I drank for the most part but I think this time I went a little past that. I remember closing my tab at 2am and someone collecting my last drink. So I know I couldn't have had any more past that point. Ugh just the thought of not knowing has me worried. I was texting my friend and all my texts are correct and I vaguely remember each text I sent. I left at about 3:30 am after finding my friend and don't really remember the lyft home but I remember texting a guy I met. My texts to him are clear as well. If anyone has comforting words or insight I would greatly appreciate it.

13 November 2016 - 21:24

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I had an obsession begin with a night I drank too. And I feel I remember everything but my mind won't give me credit and keeps on with the "what if" on and on and on. It drives me insane. I can feel your mental pain. It is such a heavy burden to carry. I regret the night so much cause I could have not drank and it's left me with such a bad obsession. Hang in there.

13 November 2016 - 21:39

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Bring a non drinking buddy next time.

I dont offer reassurance and in my state having sex with someone that is drunk is considered nonconsentual, so its not too common.

I would suggest you have virgin drinks if you want to hang out in a bar with strangers or bring a buddy. Im actually the non drinking buddy often.

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