11 June 2019 - 21:24
I don't watch Love Island but was flicking through the channels and it was on and these guys were going around topless and I feel like my heart skips a beat and I get intense feelings in my chest like nervousness and get weird feelings down there like I am getting turned on. Then there is good looking women and I like the look of them but my body doesnt react in any way to them. I am dating a woman at the moment in real life and when I kiss her I like it but dont get as aroused as I used to in my teens or 20's. Im mid 30's now. When I kiss her I get a slight semi. In my 20's I would be getting much more aroused.
I really feel like I am gay now. That I was born gay but somehow fooled myself or was capable of being aroused by women in my teens and 20's but not anymore and only men do it. I hate it. I am watching this show now to see how I react.